Failed Again

Another opportunity passes me by

Alas it was not meant to be

I’m beginning to wonder if I will ever meet

Sir Paul McCartney.

Waiting for hours in the snow

Chilled from head to toe

Hope and anticipation of what was surely to be

Once again ending in misery.

I have failed again on my fourth try

On the outside of the ‘in crowd’ looking in

I act and appear normal while inside I cry

For no matter what I do I just can’t win.

Waited for hours, afraid to go

Feeling cold with morale low

Negative thought ‘it is never to be’

Is this my everlasting destiny?

To be so close to my goal

And failing once again

Disappointment fills my heart

Leaving me in pain.

The signing stopped when I was just 20 people away

I prayed and prayed that you would stay

A quick glimpse of you was all I saw

Before you were ushered back in through the door.

I gave my poem for you to the man in your car

Just for you to read, I hope you did

But maybe I failed again at that too

And it is now under some dustbin lid.

I bought your book after you drove away

And read through it within the day

Inspiration ran through me once more

Even though the pain still felt raw.

I know deep down in my soul

I will get to meet you one day.

But at this moment in time

It is just beyond the sunshine ray.

One day my ambitions and dreams will come true

And I will no longer be left feeling sad and blue

My heart will stop being full of pain

And gone will be the thought ‘I've failed again’.